We have one class left. All the plays are supposed to be written by next Wednesday. Some kids are very close to being finished and will have no trouble, others will need extra one-on-one sessions. I wonder if I am doing a decent job of helping them get to the finish line. Are they really taking this stuff in? Have we challenged them to write their best possible plays? Do they care? For some reason, during the last few sessions it felt harder to get my points across to the class than other times in the past. A friend of mine says that this is good – that I am in a growing/learning place. I hope she’s right.
We have less than a month before the big shows. There are a lot of moving parts that need to be pulled together to make it work and right now, that is daunting. We have sets to build, props to make, word to spread, tickets to sell, programs to make, goodies to bake etc. etc
But before any of it can be done we have plays to be made, (then cast, and rehearsed…)
So, it is this place I have to live in as a Producer/Director – and as an artist. It is the place of the unknown. The place that seems impossible. It is uncomfortable and overwhelming, and at times seems like “why bother?” Too much work – too little pay. It’s also a little scary – maybe it will fail. Maybe we haven’t helped these kids learn anything. Maybe we are big fakes and everyone will find out…
But – after having been in the professional theater for nearly 20 years – I have learned a little thing or two: Work. Trust.
Work and Trust. Trust and Work. Trust in the Work. It is all we have. We work and move forward a little bit everyday – even on those frustrating days when it seems like there is no magic in it, that the muse (of fire) has left the building for good, (or burned it down and skipped town.)
It will come together. I believe in the power of this work and that it will be wonderful. I trust in it, but that doesn’t make it easy.
Trust and Work. Oh – and -that I don’t do this for me – it’s for the kids. If I can keep that in mind, no matter how hard it seems now, the magic will be there.